MADE HER HAPPY....

TODAY SHE WAS MOODY...

BECAUSE OF SOME REASON WHY( I'M NOT GONNA POST IT HERE )....

AFTER SOME TIME....

SHE WAS STILL MOODY...

I TRIED TO MAKE HER HAPPY...

SHE JUST SMILED FOR AWHILE...

LATER...

I DID IT AGAIN...

THIS TIME SHE HAD NO RESPONSE...

OK..

NEVER MIND...

I STILL TRIED TO MAKE HER HAPPY AGAIN...

SHE SMILED AGAIN...

I WAS TELLING ALL STUPID JOKES...

SHE ALSO HAD NO RESPONSE...

JUST A SMIRK ON HER FACE FOR WHAT I CAN SEE..

...

SHE STILL IN A MOODY PLACE AGAIN...

HAVE TO TRY TO MAKE HER HAPPY AGAIN...

MAKE HER LAUGH...

BEFORE THIS ...

SHE WAS ASKING ME HOW TO CLEAR A MIND...

AT FIRST SHE WAS NOT HAVING A RESPONSE..

CU'Z I FORGOT THE STEPS...

THEN..

I TOLD HER AFTER SHE SMILED A LITTLE ...

I TOLD HER THIS...

AND THAT...

UNTIL 1 PART I MADE HER LAUGH LIKE ITS THE END OF THE WORLD...

I SAID...

VERTICAL SLEEPING( TIDO BRDIRI )

SHE GOT CRACKED UP...

1 MORE THING I TOLD HER...

SLEEP WITH UR BOOBS FACING THE CEILING...

AND SHE LAUGHED...

LATER I TOLD HER THAT..

WHILE DOING THAT...

TRY TO FOCUS UR MIND...

AND HEAR THE THINGS THAT ARE OUTSIDE...

THEN..

SHE SAID...

FART...

BLA....BLA...BLA...

AND OFF...

SHE WENT TO DO HER BLOG...

AND I FELT HAPPY VERY HAPPY THAT I MADE HER TOO HAPPY...

LIKE A FUCKED UP CRACK MACHINE...

HHAHAAHAHA...

IF U KNOW WHO U ARE...

PLEASE SMILE ALWAYS...

TRY TO THINK ABOUT...

VERTICAL SLEEPING(TIDO MENEGAK)

^_^

IM THINKING OF U

Where Are You Now"

To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
The the guys I miss
And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?
To my ex best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing a longs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

FORGET BUT CANNOT...

U HATE...

U LOVE...

U WANNA FORGET...

BUT U CAN'T...

U TRIED...

AND STILL NOT MOVING...

SEE HOW HE/SHE TREATS U...

REALIZE THAT...

TRY TO STAND UP FOR WHAT'S RIGHT...

NOT BEING TREATED AS A PIECE OF GARBAGE...

TO YOURSELF...

TO EVERYONE AROUND...

TO FIND THAT RIGHT PERSON..

THE PERSON WHO CARED FOR YOU THE MOST...

TO THE PERSON THAT BEING THERE FOR YOU...

COMFORT YOU..

BUT WHEN HE/SHE IS GONE...

THERE IS NO ONE THERE FOR YOU ANYMORE...

THE SAME PERSON...

WILL BE THERE ALWAYS...

REMEMBER THE PERSON...

YOU WILL FEEL SERENE...

REALIZE THIS...

PLEASE I BEG OF YOU...

I KNOW I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU...

AND I KNOW THAT YOU MIGHT SUFFER WITHOUT ME...

I'LL TAKE AWAY THE SUFFER...

I'LL GIVE YOU HOPES AGAIN...

NOT FALSE HOPES...

BUT TRUE HOPES THAT YOU CAN GRAB ON TO...

I REGRET...

I'M SORRY...

I'LL SUFFER A LOT...

I'M THE ONE THAT NEEDS YOU...

IN MY HEART ALONE...

MY TRUE DEEP FEELINGS ABOUT YOU...

IS REAL LOVE...

AND LOVE IN PURE IT SELF...

THOUGH WE ARE FAR...

THOUGH WE CAN'T SEE EACH OTHER...

THE FEELING I HAD...

SINCE THE DAY I MET YOU...

IS STILL THERE...

I CANNOT FORGET U...

I CANNOT STOP THINKING OF YOU ...

ALL THE TIME I TRIED TO SLEEP...

THE PICTURE OF YOU APPEARS IN MY DREAMS....

SORRY...

WHEN I LEFT HER

THE PAIN I FELT

THE SORROW THAT SHE FELT

AND TEARS RUNS DOWN HER FACE

ITS A MOMENT THAT I CAN CHANGE

AS HER ANGEL HE ANSWERED

I KNEW THAT THIS GONNA HAPPEN

I KNEW THAT U WONT LEAVE HIM

WE STAND TOGETHER AT FIRST

THEN I LOSE IT ALL

DOES SAVING U REALLY SEND ME TO HEAVEN

I

CAN'T BEAR THE PAIN

I

DON'T WANNA BE THE MIDDLE MAN

I

WANT U TO KNOW

THAT

HE'S NOT THE ONE FOR U

I'M SO MISSING U

THERES NO ONE KNOWS ME BETTER

I FEEL REGRET

CU'Z LEAVING U

FOR ME THIS CHANGE IS GONNA BE WORSE

AS HER ANGEL HE ANSWERED

I KNEW THAT THIS GONNA HAPPEN

I KNEW THAT U WONT LEAVE HIM

WE STAND TOGETHER AT FIRST

THEN I LOSE IT ALL

DOES SAVING U REALLY SEND ME TO HEAVEN

I DONNED THIS FOR U

I KNEW THAT ITS GONNA HAPPEN

BUT THERE'S 1 THING I NEED TO SAY

I'M OKAY..

I'M OKAY..

I'M NOT OKAAAY..!!

BUT PLEASE DON'T GO AWAY

DON'T LEAVE ME HERE WAITING

AS HER ANGEL HE ANSWERED

I KNEW THAT THIS GONNA HAPPEN

I KNEW THAT U WONT LEAVE HIM

WE STAND TOGETHER

AN I LOSE IT ALL

DOES SAVING U REALLY SEND ME TO HEAVEN

I'M SORRY FOR WHAT I DID...

I'M SORRY THAT I CAN'T BE THERE FOR U..

I'M SORRY THAT I LEAVE U..

I'M SORRY THAT I COULD NOT BE THE ONE THAT U WANTED TO LOVE..

I CAN'T BE THE ANGEL THAT U ONCE KNEW BEFORE..

I COULD CHANGE..

I MIGHT BE NOT THE SAME...

BUT EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT...

TRUST ME...

I'M THERE ALWAYS IN U...

EVEN IF I'M NOT IN FLESH AND BONES..

MY MIND AND MY SOUL WILL ALWAYS BE WITH U FOREVER..

I'M DOING THIS IS FOR UR OWN GOOD...

REALIZE SOMETHING...

THERE'S SOMETHING IMPORTANT THERE..

RIGHT IN FRONT OF U..

COMPARE ME ...

COMPARE HIM...

NOT SKIN COLOR..

NOT RELIGION...

ITS THE LOVE THAT WHO BRINGS OUT THE MOST...

NOT JUST BECAUSE THAT U LOVE HIM..

THEN HE LOVES U..

NOT THAT..AND ITS NEVER THAT..

SO MAKE A CHOICE...

ITS DIFFICULT BUT DO SOMETHING WITH IT...

THIS IS FOR THE ONLY ONE..

AND ONLY HER..

U KNOW WHO..

U KNOW WHAT ..

U ARE..

ANGEL TO DEVIL

she: - i'm still with him...

- i cannot hate him...

angel:- i will not interfere with your personal life..

- i'll just ask as normal friends does...

-no more guardian angel and stuff...

- its better of without me...

this is not what ANGEL wanted... ANGEL had caused a lot of problems if ANGEL is with her...

before an ANGEL after a DEVIL... at the beginning ANGEL wanted to comfort HER... later they became close friends.. closer and closer ANGEL got feelings for HER... SHE had loved another...

SHE cannot forget him cannot hate him... what ANGEL did... HE decided not to be with HER again... not to cause problems to HER and not to be the middle man...

from there ANGEL became the DEVIL... for hurting her even ANGEL promised not to...

for being there for HER even HE promised it... ANGEL will never be the same ANGEL that SHE knew before... ANGEL will be the DEVIL that SHE will know now...

I'M A DEVIL NOT AN ANGEL...!!!

TIRED, HAPPY, SAD, EVERYTHING....

FIRST THING - TIRED

I'M TIRED CZ I DID A CLEANING SERVICE LAST WEEK AND TODAY...

I'M TIRED CZ I HAVE ALMOST NOT ENOUGH SLEEP - WHY NOT ENOUGH..?

CZ MY FRIEND M*** IS STAYING IN MY ROOM FOR AWHILE...PLUS HE ON THE LAPTOP TILL MORNING...CURSE HIM!!!

SECOND THING - HAPPY

I'M HAPPY CZ I MET A GIRL...TALK AND ALL, I'M HAPPY CZ I SOLVED SOME OF MY FRIENDS PROBLEMS... I'M HAPPY CZ IT LEARN TO ACCEPT PEOPLE THOUGHTS AND BE WHAT I AM...

THIRD THING - SAD

I'M SAD CZ she IS IN PAIN... I'M SAD CZ she IS BEING HATED.. I'M SAD CZ she IS BEING TREATED AS A NOBODY... I'M SAD THAT I CAUSED PROBLEMS TO her...

EVEN I'M AN ANGEL TO HER... IT FEELS LIKE I'M VERY FAR APART FROM HER...

LAST THING - EVERYTHING

THE FATIGUE, THE HAPPINESS AND THE SORROW EMBEDS IN ME....

IS NOW VERY CONFUSING TO ME NOW... TO HAVE A PRINCIPLE, TO HAVE A LIFE AND TO BE A PERSON..

NOW MY BRAIN IS HURTING FROM ALL THE THOUGHTS THAT I ENCOUNTER...

THE MERCILESS FEELING THAT TAUNT ME POKES THROUGH IN ME...

TO ENDURE THE PAIN I HAVE TO SUFFER AND TO SACRIFICE FOR OTHERS...

THE THINGS I DONNED ARE NOW BE AN EXPERIENCE THAT HAVE TO LIVE WITH ME...

NOW I CAN'T DO ANYTHING YET... WEAKENED BY THE SORROW...

ENLIGHTENED BY THE HAPPINESS... WEAKENED BY FATIGUE...

AND THE EXPERIENCE I GAINED...

ALL OF THEM ARE MEANINGFUL AS I GO PASS THROUGH LIFE...