FUCKING TIRED...!!!!!

TODAY... I WENT TO WORK AS A PART TIME HOUSE CLEANER...
DAMN...
DO THIS AND DO THAT...
MUSCLE PAIN, STRAINING...ARGGHHH...!!!
WORST STILL..
MY MOM WOKE ME UP AT 7 O'CLOCK...
I NORMALLY WAKE UP AROUND 8 - 9 AM..
IF GOT CLASS...
WHEN NO CLASS ....
I WILL SLEEP UNTIL I WAKE UP...
THIS AND THAT...BLA3...

THE END...

THE REST ...
THINK HOW THE STORY ENDS...
^_^

BORED SHITLESS...!!!!

TODAY...
IS VERY BORING..
ALL WENT BACK ALREADY...
I'M SO FUCKED UP..
YESTERDAY SHISHA...
IT WAS FUN..
HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS AND ALL..
BUT...
TODAY...
ITS LIKE THE WORST DAY EVER....
YM ALSO NO RESPOND...
FACEBOOK ALSO NO RESPOND...
MY PREPAID ALMOST FINISH...
SAVING MONEY FOR SOMETHING...
HAAAAA....
FUCKING BOREDOM...!!!!!

SOMEONE PLEASE RESPOND....

ME OLD FRIENDS...^_^

OLD FRIENDS...
OLD FRIENDS...
AFTER A DISTANT TIME...
OF BEING SEPARATED..
A CALL FROM AN OLD FRIEND..
SHATTERS THE WALL OF SILENCE BETWEEN
BOTH SIDES..
A SHARD OF JOY BRINGS LIFE TO THE
WORLD OF SILENCE
THAT ARE DISTANT..
THE MOMENT A VOICE WAS HEARD..
THE JOY TO HEAR THEIR VOICES THAT CONTRIBUTE
THE SHARDS OF JOY THAT WAS KNOWN..
GREW BIGGER AND BIGGER..
THAT LITERALLY BRINGS TOTAL LIFE TO
THE WORLD THAT WAS ONCE SILENCED..

WITH BOTH EARS AND MOUTH...
TALKING MAKES SO MUCH EASIER NOW..
THE MEMORIES..
THE JOKES THAT WERE MADE..
AND REMEMBER LAUGHTER..

AN OLD FRIEND KNEW THEIR FRIENDS
WITH THEIR
ATTITUDE
BEHAVIOR
AND
THEIR ACTIONS..
AS THOUGH THAT THEY CAN PREDICT THAT..
WHAT WOULD THEIR FRIEND
WILL DO..
WILL DECIDE..
AND ACT

FRIENDS GIVE ADVICES..
THOUGH IT REALLY HURTS
BUT THEY ARE SAYING THIS AS A CONCERNED FRIEND..
WE WILL ACCEPT THEIR
ADVICES,
THEIR ASSAULTS
THEIR COMPLEMENTS
THEIR THOUGHTS
AND THEY SHARE THEIR CALAMITY
WITH THEIR TRUE FRIENDS
AND ONLY THEM
NOT ANYONE ELSE..

WE SHARE THE LOVE
WE SHARE THE PAIN
WE SHARE THE LAUGHTER
AND WE CONCERN EACH OTHER
THOSE ARE THE SIMPLE RULES
TO BE A REAL FRIEND
THESE KIND OF FRIEND
ARE RARELY BEING FOUND
NOW..
FRIENDS
MOST ARE BACKSTABBERS
MOST ARE BEING THE MAIN ATTENTION
AND MOST OF THEM ARE REALLY FUCKED UP..
ARE THESE THE FRIENDS THAT YOU WANTED TO
HAVE?

THE
FRIENDS WHO LOVE..
FRIENDS WHO CONCERN..
FRIENDS WHO ADVICES..
AND FRIENDS THAT SHARE..
THAT IS THE MEANING OF TRUE
FRIENDS

LOVE
ADVICE
CONCERN
AND
SHARING

PUT ME OUT OF MY FUCKING MISERY..!!!

NO MORE SORROW

I FELT LIKE I WAS LOST IN THE DEEP ABYSS OF THE LIGHT
AS I GO ON THROUGH..
A SUDDEN SORROW SOARS ABOVE ME..
AND ENGULFS THE SKIES WAS ONCE WHITE...
FROM WHITE TO GREY AND GREY TO BLACK...
THE SADNESS IN ME FORCE MYSELF TO DIG MY OWN GRAVE...
FOR
THE PEOPLE I'VE HELPED..
ENDED UP ME FOR COLLECTING..
THOSE MISERY I SUFFERED..
THOSE PAIN I'VE ENDURED..
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THAT...
BECAUSE I KNEW THE CONSEQUENCES..
EVEN SAVING SOMEONE THAT I HAD NO RELATION BEFORE..
SENDS ME UP TO HEAVEN..
OR DROP ME DOWN TO HELL..
THAT IS WHY I MUST BE STRONG..
THAT IS WHY I MUST CONTINUING TO
HELP
SAVE
AND
PROTECT
THE PEOPLE WHO I'VE HELPED..
EVEN THEY TREAT ME LIKE DIRT..
EVEN THEY USED ME..
EVEN THEY KILLED ME..
IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE...
I KNOW I'VE DONNED A DEED..
I KNOW I'VE SINNED..
BUT PLEASE
THE THINGS I'VE DONNED IS FOR
THE GOOD OF ALL..
AND I'LL BE KEEPING MY PROMISE...
AS A SAVIOR..
AS A PROTECTOR..
AND AS A FRIEND..
AND A LOVER..
AND
I AM WILLING TO BE SACRIFICED...
THAT IS MY POINTS OF AUTHORITY..
AND MY PRINCIPLES IN MY LIFE..

HELP
SAVE
PROTECT
SACRIFICE
AND
LOVE

SHE is in pain...

today i chat and called HER....
just to check hows her progress...
SHE is fine...
thats ok..
SHE said that ... HER ex went out to MID VALLEY without informing HER first...
SHE said..the EX was sulking( mrajuk ) cz SHE did not answer his BUZZ on YM...
then he went off... so i accompanied HER for awhile... and i have to consult her what is the possibilities that HER ex she loved were with a girl that SHE really hated...
this and that bla...bla...bla...

i asked HER again...have he called HER or not...SHE said no...when SHE called him...
he said he was in the movies...then.. SHE got a text message from him that he wanted to stayback at the KL area... like what he did to HER before this...

its hard to explain to HER cz she loved him so much that SHE did not expect anything bad from him...i have to make HER REALIZE that... this GUY ( the EX ) could have cheated on her and such...( a leopard will never change its spots, unless is being bleached dry cleaned ETC. )
hmm...such big problem... i wanted to step in to confront HIM...but SHE stopped me instead...
just not to make her feel bad...i agreed... but when things went out of control... i have to step in forcefully whether SHE likes it or not...

i have to make both of them realize on whats going on with both of them...
if this continues like this without me doing anything... only the god knows what...
aaaaaaaaarrrrrrggggggggghhhhh...!!!!!!
so frustrating...!!!

actually im already backing down when SHE wanted him back again...
but regarding HER problems and HIS attitudes... i have to step in again...
before this deep in my heart i wanted to stop chatting and calling HER cz i wanted her to be with HIM again...
but i IGNORED it...there is something i felt real deep inside that is real bad...
i cant let her be on her own... i cant let the EX always taking advantage of HER...
thus...i cant give up until this problem settles....

argh....
_|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_ _|_



later...after SHE buzzed me on YM.. i replied...
then SHE stopped...
then i realized...
she's already hurt...
huhu...
i feel damn wrong about me...

im so sorry...

im sorry i failed U as a guardian angel...

if this is how the relationship of a guardian angel
and a friend ends

i'll suffer a lot...

i m back...

wat a fucking tiring day...
yesterday night...parents come and pick me up back home...
then...the next day( today ) went to hometown...
...
came back at MMU at 11 something at night...
opened fb...
shocked that a lot of posts in there..

later i called HER...
to check out what happened...
no reply yet...
so i YM her la...
waited and waited...
then i called my friend...
chat with her ( not GF )
bla3...
then SHE replied...
so now gotta wait again..
cz her mom is using her lappy for awhile...
zzz...

now im still waiting..
even im already half dead...
^_^

after waiting and waiting...
at last SHE replied....

zzzz....
chatting chatting...
then sleep...
maybe...
^_^

^_^ AKWARD

dunno why that i felt happy and a little weird...
im happy cz the gurl that i helped, chatted and called me...
im feeling weird cz her ex suddenly changed his attitude...

i tot that he might be cheating on her and try to understand her more at the same time...
so when she is stuck...guess who came to the rescue...
her GUARDIAN ANGEL of course...
i told her to test him and see whether that he is still loyal to her...
i told her how the test goes..that she have to play an act that she has a high class person and all...
so until then... we'll see how does she do the test...
of her ex is loyal he that he would'nt do the same thing again...
the problem is...
she and her ex is in a different UNI...
that means that she cannot make sure that he is not cheating on her...
even the ex's friends are on his side...
wat a total pain... THE ROYAL PAIN...
and she dont know what will he do...

now thats a big problem gurl....
try it for a few weeks....
what he does is the response that u will get...

FUCKKING HAPPY...

i cant tell whats what...

lately i helped this girl that had a problem with her bf..
so i helped her out
the thing is i've gotten too attached to her..
that i've unintentionally became her ' acting ' bf...
ok.. then we chatted and called ... then we became close..
then she called me her guardian angel...got shocked obviously...
i knew that i had a feeling of something between me and her deep in me when she called me that..
i ignored the feeling.. then our bond getting stronger and stronger that i unofficially ask her out to a date to MID VALLEY on 28 January 2010...so she said that she could go..
out of a sudden.. she wantad her bf back cz she loved him very much even he donned so many bad things to her( thats why i helped of course )...a few days back.. im feeling depressed and go all emo and stuff.. a few days later.. i felt that im fine.. happy as always but there is a sharp pain that pierce through my heart when i chat and called her.. even looking at her photos makes the pain stronger...
so i decided not to make her sad and not to make myself a pain in the ass...
and so i forced myself not to be depressed and be like those days before..

the ones who are reading this...
im still alive, happy as always ^_^
and im still her guardian angel...